Hi all,
I only have time for a quick post because I have a splitting headache and I want to take a little nap or at least rest my eyes while the girls are doing the same. We had our 20 week ultrasound today and the baby looks great. Good steady heartbeat, cute toes and fingers, and all the other important things that they look for at this stage. That's the great news! The other news isn't really bad, but I am a little sad about it. The ultrasound gave us a very clear picture between the legs and it's a GIRL. Yep, that will make 3 girls and our family complete. I wish I didn't feel so disappointed and sad, but I guess that is part of being human. If you haven't figured it out yet, I really really really REALLY wanted a boy. There are so many reasons why I wanted a boy - too many to really right down. Of course, as any good mom, I am happy and grateful that this baby girl has all the important things to make it healthy. I know that God's plans are bigger than mine and that they are PERFECT. I also know that eventually I will be excited about having another girl - it may take a few months, but I'll get there. There are obvious financial reasons why having a girl is a good thing (hand-me-downs, not having to re-paint the bedrooms, etc). It's hard for me to explain how I am feeling. Happy the baby is healthy. Sad/disappointed that it is not a boy. I'm not angry with God for not "granting my wishes," but I just wish that He had. Alright, enough of my little tantrum. Time to start being grateful for a healthy baby and start praying for this little girl to have momma's blood instead of daddy's blood. :) I'm not getting my hopes up though.
On a positive note, it's my parents anniversary today. Happy Anniversary Mom & Dad!
Our anniversary is tomorrow and I am getting a pedicure. I also have to find some sunless tanning lotion so that I don't look like an albino. If anyone has a good suggestion for a good but affordable sunless tanning lotion or spray, let me know.
I hope you all have a great week!
Congrats Kim - I totally know those feelings. I was there at that same point a few months ago! Keep your chin up, but don't feel bad for feeling disappointed - it's natural. Hope you got your nap in. Happy Anniversary tomorrow!
Posted by: MandaKay | October 15, 2007 at 05:00 PM
Congrats Kimmy!! I am so glad she is looking healthy--what a blessing! I am so praying for her to have your blood too!
happy Anniversary tomorrow!! love ya!
Posted by: Nina_VK | October 15, 2007 at 05:06 PM
Congratulations!!!!! You and Amanda will have soooo much fun with all your girls growing up together!
Posted by: Sarah Huizenga | October 15, 2007 at 06:10 PM
i am glad to hear all is going well..i know you wanted a boy, but don't let that get you down, there is a reason for everything. lots of love!
Posted by: Jenn | October 15, 2007 at 11:26 PM
Hi Kim-
It has been a while since a I have left a comment here. I do check in quite often though. :)
Congrats on your baby girl on the way! I think every mom can understand those feelings you are having. I think I really felt that way with our first child because I really wanted to give my husband a son. Two little girls later, we couldn't be happier with what God gave us.
As for tanning lotion: Dove Energy Glow is nice. it is shimmery, doesn't give too much of that stinky after-tanning smell and it is gradual. i don't think it is really marketed as a self-tanner, it might be by the other lotions, but it is great!
Have a great trip and Congrats that all is healthy with you and the baby!
Mel :)
Posted by: Mel | October 17, 2007 at 12:51 PM
Finally catching up on blogs. I love that you're honest about your feelings about it. I'm sure it's extremely common to have those feelings and most people probably just don't admit to them. You've got two of the sweetest girls on the planet and I'm sure this one will be as sweet and adorable as her sisters. And it is awfully fun that you and manda each have 3 that will be so close in age to eachother. Another plus. :)
On the tanning lotion thing, if you haven't gotten some already, I personally love L'oreal Sublime Bronze. (I had to go check the bottle) Hopefully if you got some you didn't get anything by Jergens. The only good thing about that stuff is that it surely won't stain your clothes but it won't make you even a shade darker either so you might as well by their regular lotion. My 2 cents. :)
Love ya!
Posted by: Shawn | October 17, 2007 at 08:49 PM