Found these little cards here and filled one out digitally Friday night.
Feeling a little better now but it's been a rough week. Seeing a grandmother who was always so strong and independent become so frail is tough. Seeing her casket carried to the gravesite next to my grandfathers by my brother and cousins was even more difficult. But to be honest I think it's entirely different circumstances that made the loss of my grandma this week particularly difficult. Circumstances that I chose for myself that I don't regret but that seem to emphasize otherwise bearable feelings of being alone. The email from my mom letting us know that Grandma had peacefully passed on came late Tuesday night after any friends that I could call had already gone to bed. Going to bed alone each night is a lonely feeling anyway but it's emphasized when you could really just use a hug. Going home to an empty house after the visitation Thursday night was equally emotional for me, emphasized by a severe storm (which I normally love) and tornado warnings nearby (which is a bit scary when you're in a 2nd floor apartment). I live alone by choice so I'm not looking for pity. I just want to remember what this time in life was like for me and this is my only journal so those of you who read unfortunately get the bad with the good.
Fortunately there is good to share too. I'm feeling better today. Wishing there were 2 more days to the weekend. But I got to spend alot of the day yesterday surrounded by the most adorable nieces and nephews on the planet. Sharing tiny cookie bites with Ainsley, watching Isa wink, cuddling with Selah in the nursery and getting one of the world's best hugs from Paige just a few of the good bits.
And I haven't even blogged about me new sweet baby niece that I got to hold for quite awhile Thursday night. She was such a honey. This is Gracyn Kay. You can see lots more pictures of her here.
Off to work today and then working on blog designs tonight. I decided it was time to start a separate blog to post about the design stuff. I felt like it was sortof taking over this blog. So if you are interested in what's going on in the blog design part of life you'll find all that here from now on. I have a lot of ideas for this new blog including links to fun blogging tools, advice on posting, tutorials and of course posts about the current blogs I'm working on. So, the following is the last (well, last regular) peek at a blog that I'll be finishing up hopefully tonight...
And finally a fun little quiz that I stumbled across and had to check it out for myself. I think it was right on for me. Funny cuz I really never think of myself as having an accent. Apparently mine is an Inland North accent. What's yours?
| What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Inland North
You may think you speak "Standard English straight out of the dictionary" but when you step away from the Great Lakes you get asked annoying questions like "Are you from Wisconsin?" or "Are you from Chicago?" Chances are you call carbonated drinks "pop." | |
| The Midland | |
| The Northeast | |
| Philadelphia | |
| North Central | |
| The South | |
| The West | |
| Boston | |
| What American accent do you have? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz | |
Have a great Monday.
Hold on to God Shawn during this lonely time- he is the only constant/faithful one that you can truly 100 percent rely on. I have been where you are, and I can only give the reassurance that God will never give you more than you can handle. Blessings will come from suffering- hopefully God's timing will be shown to you soon. Many hugs, Sarah
Posted by: Sarah Huizenga | October 22, 2007 at 05:53 PM